Scorpia195

B R E A T H E ........................ He's gone. Dead. What do I do? He's really dead. Forever. And... I killed him. My boyfriend. And now, I just can't forget - every few seconds, these images, memories, they just keep flitting through my head. I can't get them out. It's terrifying. It's been two days. I can't sleep. Every time, I wake up screaming, horrified of the nightmares that never end. Spiraling on into infinity, until I can't breathe. When we first started going out, he was too nice. But I was too much of a fool in love to notice. Always looking out for me, holding doors, buying me flowers, chocolates, jewelry. Taking me out t

The Moment After Heartbreak For all the pain I suffer And all the tears I cry Every single day Inside a little I die Why’d you keep doing this? You don’t even try Tell me that you love me All you do is lie With every single lie you tell Inside my heart just shatters Smile so innocent, eyes so cold Because for you it doesn’t matter For all the hurt you cause And every time I fall Where my heart was naïve and open Now there stands a wall.

Because I Have You Why don't you trust me Why do you lie Always indifferent With emotionless eyes Pretending to be aloof Like you don't care And if I'm ever hurt You suddenly appear there Quietly creeping in Thinking I can't hear Turning around to see you Can't be without you near Knowing you love me Somewhere inside The detached facade Will someday subside In the very end You'll never push me away By my side, I know That you'll always stay So I don't need anyone else We'll be together through and through I don't want another person Because I have you.

Stumbling Soul Lie silent in the dark Afraid of what you'll see Sick of fractured memories Don't know what to be Exhausted of always running Tired of escaping tricks Endless deadly dangers And repeated reckless risks All shattered and regretful Touch your face and notice tears Trying not to feel foolish Time to let go all your fears Fleeing from you past No cares for what you'll find Walking to a new world Leave the nightmares all behind Not falling apart Broken but still whole Fighting lost illusions You're just a stumbling soul.

Mental Abuse No where to run No where to hide No place to shelter You pushed me aside Can't cry for help I've been left behind Feeling broken and empty Like a clock you can't wind You had me on a leash With your clever facade And like a naive little pet For my innocence I have paid Your kind, helpful remarks Were replaced with shouts and lies No longer gullible, I saw The cruelty in your eyes Cowering in the corner I don't know waht to do Bruises spreading slowly It's all shades of black and blue Can't see the right path I look but I can't find Searching for the answers I'm lost in my own mind No where to run I kno

Doll I stare with empty emotionless eyes Doing whatever you say I guess I’m used to being controlled And never having my own way Feeling mindless; speechless I’ve been taken over by you A bland smile, unseeing eyes I look and just see through Occasionally I’m let out Then caged again like a bird To sing only what you want me to And not another word So tired of being manipulated So sick of being used Never gave me any choices Now I want to choose Don’t want to be exploited I’m sick of all your games You say things will get better But it only stays the same It’s too late now, I’ve opened

Someday Someday I will leave All my worries behind Someday I will see And stop being blind Someday I will cry And not feel sad Someday I will shout And never feel bad Someday I will find A person who loves me Someday I’ll be loved For just being me Someday I’ll be happy Someday I’ll be free Someday I’ll be released Someday I’ll be me.